Well, maybe not so much any more. But I definitely was.
What do I mean by “jerk?”
I believed that what I wanted came first. I believed that what I thought was more important that what other people thought. I believed that I was entitled to tell them that I was right and they were wrong. I believed that it was okay to be “honest,” regardless of how the other person felt about it.
What brought this to mind?
I was sitting looking at my wife, and wondering why she stuck it out. Truly. She met me when I was pretty much at my peak of jerk-ness, and survived all it took – including martial arts and a heart attack – for me to learn how important other people are. And for me to start taking responsibility for my own feelings and behavior.
(If you get the impression that I think my wife is a remarkable woman, you’re right.)
I’m still a jerk sometimes. I still forget to think first, and think in the right way, about the people around me. It’s true – I’m imperfect.
Like you.
One of the hardest lessons of my life has been learning to stop, think, look, and think again before I speak. In fact, I’ll include writing emails in “speaking.”
When I write an email, I read it through and edit it at least three times. Because I’ve made too many mistakes by making too many assumptions or by not stopping to think.
At least with an email, the other person can take their time before dealing with their reactions and responses.
In person, the impact is frequently much worse.
Can you stop being a jerk?
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, Patterson et al (yes, I’m going to keep referring to this work – I think it’s seminal) talk about the Stories we tell ourselves, and understanding our Paths. In the example above (I did/didn’t whatever), my Path was the thinking that led me from what I did or didn’t do to assuming something about Debbie’s 
